Deception and insights

Deception Island. It is a place in Antarctica of which I had never heard, a place apart featured in the BBC Travel web pages.

Human artifacts on the island resemble those one would find on a derelict industrial site, probably because the buildings that remain are the derelict structures left by the whaling industry, structures abandoned more than half a century ago.

It is not the former place of marine life death that is evocative of past memories, but the current presence of marine life abundance. Colonies of chinstrap penguins now inhabit Deception Island. Mr Forbush would be delighted that they were thriving so well.

Mr Forbush was the lead character in a film that was one of the most memorable of my youth. Mr Forbush and the Penguins was a box office failure, was torn apart by the critics, and was damned by faint praise in The Guardian, whose film critic commented, “it is not as bad as we have been led to believe.” To me, however, it was a film with deep insights into  the foibles of human nature and the harshness of wider nature.

In Mr Forbush and the Penguins, John Hurt played Richard Forbush, a biologist who went to Antarctica to study a penguin colony.

Forbush had gone to impress a woman back in London, but in the isolation of his existence and the penguins’ struggle for survival, he develops an empathy for the penguins that makes him deeply resentful toward skuas that come to steal penguin eggs and chicks. Forbush is determined to protect the penguin colony and makes a balista, a reproduction of a Roman siege weapon, to repel the skuas.

“Retribution is near my fine feathered friends. Make no mistake about that,” he declares to the predators.

As he fires rocks at the skuas with the balista, he shouts, “You’ve asked for it, now you’ll get it! Now it’s your turn! You hear me? Go on, get out! Get out! All of you! Die, damn you! Die! Do you hear me? Die! Die!”

Forbush briefly repels the skuas, but as soon as he ceases his missile onslaught against them, they return and he is forced to realize that there is nothing he can do against nature working in its own way.

Had the story been true, had Forbush been a real person, fifty years after the making he would be an old man, and perhaps he would be delighted to read the story of Deception Island.  Perhaps he would be delighted that the penguins seem always to endure predation and to thrive without human intervention. Whether his relationship with the woman back in London would have thrived is more doubtful.

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I wish I had done that

Of course, the work was always presented as an act of charity, a great kindness on the part of the trustees who had invested their own money in the establishment of the schools. It would have seemed almost querulous to have pointed out that the fees paid for each pupil by local education authorities up and down the country equated to the annual pay of an ordinary worker, around £2,000 p.a. in the mid-1970s.

The principal, (who was also the principal trustee) was someone for whom we were expected to demonstrate a constant deference and gratitude, she lived in a pleasant detached residence in the school grounds. Her munificence towards those of us sent to the remote cluster of buildings in a Dartmoor valley seemed generously rewarded – every two years there was a new Saab car. A member of the staff said this was an economical way of having such a car – changing it regularly meant it did not lose too much money from its price when it was new. It was a piece of logic that escaped me then and escapes me now; spending a large sum of money instead of a very large sum of money was not how “economical” would have been interpreted in our family.

Perhaps the worst thing of all was not the new house and car, but the obeisance we were expected to demonstrate. The principal’s nickname was “ Queenie,” probably because her name was “Elizabeth,” perhaps also because she assumed an almost regal air.

The worst moment of all was always when you had to go to her office about some trifling matter and at the end of the conversation she would stand and say, “now, give me a kiss,” and there was an expectation that you would step forward and give her a peck on the cheek.

The staff seemed always content to play their part in the exultation of the principal. There is an abiding memory of one of her birthdays. Every pupil had their pocket money levied to make a “contribution” toward a birthday present from the boys. On the morning of the birthday itself, we would be marched up the lane that led to her house and formed into lines to sing “happy birthday.” The principal would come to her front door and say how lovely it was and what good boys we were.

The particular birthday is memorable because, in the large card which we were all expected to sign, a boy had written his name and added his nickname in brackets, as if the card were intended for a classmate. The teacher responsible for the card was incandescent, showing the nickname to everyone in the room, as if some great act of desecration had been committed.

Decades later, there is a lingering admiration for the boy concerned, a wish to have had the bravery required for such a piece of casual iconoclasm.

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Cash to spare

Alphanumeric passwords have become a challenge, particularly as the university log in seems to demand that the password be changed every month and I cannot remember which of my stock passwords I have already used. And how many different PIN numbers are people expected to remember?

Long gone are the days when a single PIN was all I needed, and it to take money from a cashtill.

In 1979, having a card to take out money was something new and exciting.

The National Westminster bank on the Aldwych in London had a till which was a fascinating combination of the mechanical and the electronic. The “menus” were printed on a black rubber roll and rolled backwards and forwards behind a glass screen, like the destination boards on London buses. The choices would be aligned with buttons that were pressed to make one’s selection. 4785, the PIN number still remains in the memory.

The tills dispensed £5, £10 and £20 notes, though it would be rare to have occasion to need a £20 note. Tickets for Wembley to watch England play in the European Nations Cup qualifying group matches were £2 each; a pint of beer was 32p, and on half-price nights it was possible to get six pints for a pound.

The reason the card and PIN remain so strongly in the memory is that there seemed a never ending supply of £5 notes. The student grant in those days was exceedingly generous. Even half board in a hall of residence cost only £350 a term and the full student grant was £2,000 for the year, £700 for each of the first two terms and £600 for the third, plus travelling expenses incurred above £50 per year.

Unless one was completely profligate, the full grant was sometimes hard to spend. Go to see the Royal Shakespeare Company on a Monday night and student seats were £1.10 instead of £6.60. The two most extravagant nights out were going to see Woody Allen in  Manhattan at a Leicester Square Cinema, which cost £3 – half as much again as a ticket for Wembley – and going to a Leicester Square disco for students from all over London, which had a reduced entrance charge, but charged 60p for drinks.

Not only were they days of having cash to spare, they were days when being a student was a passport to reduced prices. Good old British Rail still had fares that people could afford and while the student railcard could not reduce fares below a certain minimum during the week, the 50% reduction was subject to no minimum at weekends. Visiting a friend in Brighton one weekend, a single ticket out to Falmer, where the university was located, cost only 8p or 12p, or something so small it was hardly worth requesting the reduction.

Money has never been so plentiful since. Sometimes I wonder if National Westminster Bank would give me one of their cards again – and a large bank balance to access with a single PIN.

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You can’t find lost time

We were both born in Taunton’s Canon Street Hospital, three weeks apart in the autumn of 1960. He has decided that when he reaches his 63rd birthday next year, he is going to retire.

Perhaps a financial situation that means not having the option to retire means I don’t have to explain to people that I need to make the most of the time before it is lost forever.

Those years where I lived life in a way where hours were not filled are years when life was wasted, The greatest heresy of our time is that time should be wasted, that we should pass years putting in time.

It is more than twenty-five years since the BBC television series Our Friends in the North. The North in the series was Tyneside. The series finishes with a single question, it is question that has more strength a quarter of a century later than it had on the television screen in 1996.

The four friends from thirty years previously are gathered in Nicky’s house after his mother’s funeral. Nicky had loved Mary in the 1960s and, perhaps for the sake of the past, Mary agrees to meet Nicky for lunch the next day. There is a sense that the list of lost opportunities is going to grow longer and you almost will Nicky to say something.

Mary leaves in her car and Nicky suddenly realizes that he cannot let another moment escape. He runs frantically through the streets of the housing estate, taking short cuts, and manages to intercept Mary’s car.  Mary winds down the car window and, gasping for breath, Nicky asks, “Why not today?”

Mary smiles at him and agrees.

Despite it being screened in 1996, the image of the breathless Christopher Ecclestone who played Nicky is still clear in the mind, his frantic, desperate run through the housing estate is still memorable.

When watching the programme on that distant evening, Nicky’s question seemed to redeem the previous thirty years. Time seemed to be recaptured.

Of course, it was a mistake, an illusion to imagine that time once past could ever be recovered. Life can only be lived in the present and if there has been a failure to make the most of the time that is past, then there needs to be an even greater effort to make the most of the time that is to come.

It is a long time since a hospital stood in Canon Street, there is no trace of it ever having been there. You can no more recapture time than you can find the place my friend and I were born.

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Cui bono?

“Sir, who do you support in the war?”

“Ukraine, obviously. But I would wish it all to end with as few deaths as possible. I don’t want thousands of Russian boys to die anymore than I would want thousands of men from anywhere to die. It’s all horrible. I knew a British army officer who said that war was dirty, vicious and bloody, and I have never seen a reason to disagree with him.”

“I’m half Ukrainian, sir.”

“I know. And I think the Ukrainian President, being the man he is, would want the Russians just to go home and for the killings to stop. I watched the video of the Russian helicopter being shot down by a missile and felt sad it had to happen. Those men were someone’s sons, someone’s brothers, someone’s husbands.”

For once, the discussion wasn’t tangential to the content of the lesson. The Beatitudes were the focus of study, “Blessed are the peacemakers” was being considered.

Coming back to my apartment I scoured the news outlets for some idea of in what direction the conflict was going. It seems a stalemate. Some of the news websites were warning of impending massive battles, but there seemed little evidence that the invading army was making progress.

My son, a keen student of military affairs phoned.

“What’s happening in Ukraine?” I asked.

“Very little, it seems. I follow the Twitter accounts of various retired US generals. They say the serving commanders are embarrassed at how much the Russian strength has been talked up.

“The Russians have committed 70% of their available forces and have come to a halt. They are short of supplies, short of ammunition, and low on morale. Money that was purportedly spent on military development was pocketed by politicians and their friends. Vehicles are old and poorly maintained, officers have little idea about tactics, and most of them don’t want to be there.”

“So why have the Russians been talked up?”

“Because it suits those who want extra military expenditure?”

Whose good is served by stories of massive Russian strength when the truth is crumbling tyres, empty fuel tanks, and hungry soldiers?

Not just the advocates of increased military expenditure, but the politicians who want to divert attention from their domestic mismanagement. Like Big Brother in 1984, if one can foster a belief in a constant external threat then one can justify whatever degree of authoritarianism one chooses.

 

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