A Bloomsday accidentally observed in Somerset

The A levels finished forty-three years ago yesteday, on Friday, 15th June 1979.

The passing of the days at Sixth Form College was marked by an evening playing skittles and drinking ale at a pub in the Somerset village of Catcott. The evening was rounded off with a supper of crusty bread, Stilton cheese and pickled onions.

The next day, Saturday, 16th June, entirely unaware of the existence of something called ‘Bloomsday,’ I went to the library in Street, with the intention of borrowing books that were considered to be ‘important’.

James Joyce’s A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man and Ulysses were among the pile brought home.

A friend’s father thought it distinctly odd.  He thought it very strange that any red blooded male should be reading Joyce.  His logic still seems unfathomable.

A Portrait was read with great effort, partly because I had begun my summer job, labouring at Kelway’s Nursery, on Monday, 18th June, and was exhausted at the end of each day.  Ulysses was abandoned after forty pages and not picked up again until 2003.

What was it that forty years ago that prompted abandoning the book?  Having borrowed it, completely inadvertently, on the 75th anniversary of the first Bloomsday, why did I stop at page 40? It was years later that I discovered the probable reason.

I had taken Ulysses from the shelf, and had turned to Page 40.  On Page 41, there had been the likely answer to my question:

— Mark my words, Mr Dedalus, he said. England is in the hands of the jews. In all the highest places: her finance, her press. And they are the signs of a nation’s decay. Wherever they gather they eat up the nation’s vital strength. I have seen it Coming these years. As sure as we are standing here the jew merchants are already at their work of destruction. Old England is dying.

He stepped swiftly off, his eyes coming to blue life as they passed a broad sunbeam. He faced about and back again.

— Dying, he said, if not dead by now.

The harlot’s cry from street to street
Shall weave old England’s winding sheet.

His eyes open wide in vision stared sternly across the sunbeam in which he halted.

— A merchant, Stephen said, is one who buys cheap and sells dear, jew or gentile, is he not?

— They sinned against the light, Mr Deasy said gravely. And you can see the darkness in their eyes. And that is why they are wanderers on the earth to this day.

On the steps of the Paris Stock Exchange the goldskinned men quoting prices on their gemmed fingers. Gabbles of geese. They swarmed loud, uncouth about the temple, their heads thickplotting under maladroit silk hats. Not theirs: these clothes, this speech, these gestures. Their full slow eyes belied the words, the gestures eager and unoffending, but knew the rancours massed about them and knew their zeal was vain. Vain patience to heap and hoard. Time surely would scatter all. A hoard heaped by the roadside: plundered and passing on. Their eyes knew the years of wandering and, patient, knew the dishonours of their flesh.

— Who has not? Stephen said.

— What do you mean? Mr Deasy asked.

He came forward a pace and stood by the table. His underjaw fell sideways open uncertainly. Is this old wisdom? He waits to hear from me.

— History, Stephen said, is a nightmare from which I am trying to awake.

Having completed, the previous week, an A level in history that covered the rise of Adolf Hitler and the hideous crimes of the Nazis, the casual anti-Semitism of Mr Deasy had probably been too much to take.

 

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Something beautiful makes a difference

Tracing the story of a Great War soldier from his birth in Ruthin in North Wales in 1895,  through the ugly hell of the Western Front, I came upon a moment of beauty,

In December 1918, he had been married at Blean in Kent. He had survived the conflict and one can only imagine his joy at being married a month later. He was to live another six decades, dying at a grand old age of eighty-six. How much difference to his life had that single moment after the war made to his view of life?

Beauty is a strange thing, it can allow a moment of escape from horror and ugliness.

In one of the most profound books I ever read, words in the space of a single page out of five hundred put the other four hundred and ninety-nine into a different context:

The hedgerows were deep and ragged where he walked, covered with the lace of cow parsley.  The air had a feeling of purity as though it had never been breathed; it was just starting to be cool with the first breeze of the evening.  From the tall elms he could see at the end of the field there was the sound of rooks, and a gentler calling of wood pigeons close at hand.  He stopped, and leaned against a gate.  The quietness of the world about him seemed to stand outside of time; there was no human voice to place it.

Above him he saw the white moon, early and low above the elms.  Over and behind it were long jagged wisps of cloud that ran in ribbed lies back into the pale blue of the sky, then trailed away in gestures of vapourous white.

Stephen felt himself overtaken by a climactic surge of feeling.  It frightened him because he thought it would have some physical issue in spasm or bleeding or death.  Then he saw that what he felt was not an assault but a passionate affinity.  It was for the rough field running down to the trees and for the pathgoing back into the village where he could see the tower of the church: these and the forgiving distance of the sky were not separate, but part of of creation, and he too, still by any sane judgement a young man, by the repeated tiny pulsing of his blood, was one with them.  He looked up and saw the sky as it would be trailed with stars under darkness, the crawling nebulae and smudged lights of infinite distance; these were not different worlds it now seemed clear to him, but bound through the mind of creation to the shredded white clouds, the unbreathed air of May, to the soil that lay beneath the damp grass at his feet.  He held tightly on to the gate and laid his head on his arms, in some residual fear that the force of binding love he felt would sweep him from the earth.  He wanted to stretch out his arms and enfold in them the fields, the sky, the elms with their sounding birds; he wanted to hold them with the unending forgiveness of a father to his prodigal errant but beloved son . . . nothing was immoral or beyond redemption, all could be brought together, understood in the long perspective of forgiveness.  As he clung to the wood, he wanted also to be forgiven for all that he had done; he longed for the unity of the world’s creation to melt his sin and anger, because his soul was joined to it.

The book is not a spiritual one, not even one by a religious author.

The words are from Sebastian Faulks’ Birdsong.  In the hideous grimness of the bloody slaughter of the First World War, Faulks’ character Wraysford is allowed a few days leave and encounters a moment of sublime beauty. Time looks different because of a single moment.

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The end of a populist Prime Minister

Anyone who cares to read The Great Outsider: The Life of David Lloyd George, Roy Hattersley’s account of the life of the last Liberal prime minister, is led to the unmistakable conclusion that Lloyd George was not a pleasant man. His years seemed to have been marked by a single-minded pursuit of what he wanted, whether in politics, or in his succession of relationships with women.

Lloyd George’s tactic was not to argue on the basis of philosophy or policy, but to launch personal attacks on anyone who opposed him, even if they were within his own party

Single-mindedness brought profound reform, including the groundbreaking introduction of old age pensions, but also brought the destruction of his party.

At the end of the First World War, Liberal Prime Minister Lloyd George, anxious to retain his position at the head of a National Government, threw in his lot with the Conservatives, splitting his party but retaining the premiership in a coalition.

In the previous, pre-war, General Election, the Liberal Party had won 272 seats against 271 for the Conservatives. In 1918, Lloyd George’s Coalition Liberals won just 127 seats, while 36 more were won by Liberals opposed to the Coalition  – a net loss of more than a hundred Liberal seats.  By contrast, the National Conservatives, led by Andrew Bonar Law won 332 seats with a further 47 seats being won by Tories opposed to the Coalition.  From a pre-war situation of parity, the Liberals slipped to one of huge numerical inferiority; a decline from which they have never recovered.

By 1922, there was increasing disquiet within Tory ranks about involvement in the Lloyd George led Coalition Government.  The combined Tory Parliamentary strength was 313 members in the Coalition and 65 opposed; Lloyd George’s Coalition Liberals were down to 120 seats, with a further 35 non-coalition Liberals in the House.

On 19th October 1922, Conservative MPs met at the Carlton Club to debate their support for Lloyd George.  The vote against the Coalition continuing was 187-87.  Andrew Bonar Law was invited to form a government and immediately went to the country.

In the General Election of November 1922, the Conservatives, now united, won 344 seats, the Liberals, still divided won 115, the former opponents of the Coalition gaining 62 while Lloyd George was reduced to having a parliamentary bloc of just 53 seats.

There were to be elections in the two subsequent years, the Liberals staged a minor comeback in 1923, when the Conservatives won 258 seats, Labour 191, and the reunited Liberal Party 158.  However, a year later, the end of Liberal politics was complete. On 29th October 1924, the Conservatives won 412 seats, Labour 151 and the Liberals a mere 40.

Through subsequent elections the Liberal Party remained a peripheral party, even the collapse of the Labour Party in 1931 did not allow a Liberal revival.  By 1945, they were reduced to twelve seats and slipped into single figures in the 1950s and 1960s.

Perhaps the decline was inevitable, perhaps the rise of the Labour Party in the 1920s left no room for the Liberal Party, but their long decline dates from involvement in a Coalition government, an involvement prompted by a man for whom politics was about himself.

In some ways he seems not dissimilar from the current occupant of Number Ten. A man in whom the 1922 Committee have been losing their condidence.

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Run down

Somewhere, there is a photograph of me on a French Mediterranean beach in early- August 1989.

It was the height of summer, the autoroutes that brought us from the Channel port had been filled with traffic moving at walking pace. The beach was a place with barely space to spread out a towel.

Under the Languedoc sunshine, I am sat on a towel, wearing T-shirt and shorts, I have a large towel pulled tightly around my shoulders. I still remember the feeling of cold as I sat there. Beginning a holiday, my health had immediately plummeted.

It was a pattern that was to be repeated. I developed doctor-diagnosed flu on holiday in Brittany in 1995.

Perhaps I should have been more wary about the impending end of year.

Teaching ended Friday week ago, and I set off to Marseille the next morning.

The rugby final was a trip to which I had been looking forward for months. It wouldn’t have mattered who was playing. The flight to Lyon, the TGV journey south, the game at the Stade Velodrome, each moment was to be a memorable finale to the year.

However, there was a feeling of indifference, a sense of overwhelming tiredness. Returning for the in house exams last week, attempts at cheer were difficult. Moments were heavy.

Even writing my blogs became a chore too many. For the Fainthearted has been online for eighteen years. There were times when I would still write a new post even if I hadn’t got home until after eleven o’clock. Last week, none of it seemed worth the effort.

Perhaps there was the onset of some existential crisis. Perhaps the black dog that has been warded off all through the winter months had taken the opportunity of the arrival of the summer days to unexpectedly pounce.

Through the past days there has been a nagging pain in my left shoulder. Sometimes the nagging would become a stab. Having no memory of lifting anything heavy in the past week or wrenching a muscle, the cause of pain was baffling.

This morning, a neat rash of red blisters had appeared on the skin covering my shoulder, the source of the sharp stinging sensation was evident.

It is some thirty-odd years since I last suffered shingles. It had arrived in June, after the final year of training for ordination. A time that should have been buoyant had ended flatly.

The consolation of being run down is that the curve can only turn upwards.

 

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A magical mystery Tor

My friend thinks Glastonbury is a magical place, she is not alone in her opinion.

The walls of a circular room at the county museum in Taunton are inscribed with comments on Somerset and its people. Quotes from famous writers include words that are pejorative as well as ones more complimentary, words from unexpected sources appear, among them a comment from John Steinbeck, who stayed in the east Somerset town of Bruton in 1959:

The other night, I discovered that fifty feet from our house, through a break in the trees, you can see St Michael’s Tor at Glastonbury.  There is no question that there is magic here, and all kinds of magic.

“You should have come to High Ham, instead,” I thought, “you wouldn’t have had to go fifty feet from your house.”

When a blanket of mist comes down over the Levels, if you look north-east from the village, the Tor, that had caught the eye of John Steinbeck, rises like an island from a sea of white fluffiness.

It would not have been hard to imagine how Steinbeck had looked across a nocturnal landscape and thought it had a certain undefinable quality.

A Nobel laureate, John Steinbeck was a writer who captured a sense of 1930s America, the years of the Great Depression. His novel The Grapes of Wrath describes lives lived in the context of grim realities, not much magic of any sort. Why would a writer remembered for detailed depictions of people’s struggle for daily existence talk in terms of a place possessing “all kinds of magic?”

“Magic” is always a subjective quality attributed to a place or experience by a person; where one person saw a stone tower, John Steinbeck saw something else.

It does seem, though, that some places are more likely to be ascribed ethereal qualities, that some places possess a capacity to inspire the imagination. Perhaps it is the accumulation of custom and tradition, perhaps it is the passing on of stories and folk tales, that imbue locations with qualities that cannot be photographed or measured.

Glastonbury Tor is not magical, instead it is the focal point of centuries of storytelling, what Steinbeck saw was not magic, but a great mass of interwoven tales and traditions. Places now prosaic might become magical for those of generations to come.

 

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